Month: March 2006

  • Michael in Stephenville.  We have been running circles all week, so I have not gotten to blog.  Our phone bill this week will be wonderful news for all the phone company investors... 


    Wednesday, we called Tepic about ten times.  Each time, we either encountered technical difficulties (no international connection or no answer) or Lorena was in therapy and Rainey was out.  We finally got through to Tepic after several attempts Thursday only to find Lorena in therapy once again and Rainey out of the house, but just as we were giving up, Rainey came in so so we got to talk to her.


    Lorraine reports that Mom is looking great and is in very good spirits.  She said that Lorena is trying desperately to talk, and that she mouths the prayers that the family meets each evening to pray.  We still joke (especially when Lorena is on the phone) that when she starts talking, the result will be a verbal tsunami -- and, of course, she laughs very hard.  I cannot imagine not being able to talk for such an extended period, especially when I could not move and had cramps and charley horses, itches, wrong positions, and other discomforts.


    We still don't know what to do regarding Lorena.  Martha suggested for us to bring her back to the States, but if we do that, then she must go back into a nursing home, and she will definitely not get the care there that she has grown accustomed to -- and that has contributed to her incredible progress.  There is no way that we could afford private nurses here, and we would have to have hired help to care for her.  Martha was aghast when I told her that, saying that Lorena has already almost succumbed to nursing home care.  I also pointed out to her that if she were here in the nursing home, I and some of her closest friends would kill ourselves trying to stay with her 24 hours per day because we know that since she cannot ask for anything, she will tend to get minimal care.  The greasy wheel syndrome is certainly the norm in the nursing home and the rehab hospitals she was in before.


    I was just about to call right now because we had set up a call appointment yesterday with Rainey, but she just emailed me that it would be better to call at 9:00 p.m. CST instead, so I will try later.  I will update as quickly as I can.


    I am having to attend a math conference tomorrow, so Kathleen Stripling had volunteered to pick Rainey up.  Kathleen was having to go to DFW tomorrow to change her ticket to Saudi for later in the summer, so my quandary for getting Rainey back home was solved, but then we discovered that Rainey will be able to ride home with Ben Aguilar.  Chris will be staying in Tepic.  She had really hoped to stay here for awhile, but...

  • Michael here in Stephenville.  It turned out that Rainey had sent me a text message last night (12:30 a.m.) informing me that she, Chris, and Ben had safely reached Mexico.  Duhh...  Anyway, we sent Rainey a text message to schedule an 8:300 p.m. CST call down there.


    Gabriela answered the phone when we called Tepic.  Rainey was there, and there was a houseful of family laughing and talking in the background as we talked.  Lorena sounded absolutely wonderful with much laughter and no tears.  She went to her father's funeral mass today and then to the interment.  Rainey said Mom was fine but very tired.


    Rainey said Rafael and Beto had driven to Guadalajara to pick them up.  They arrived in Tepic at 2:30 a.m. RMT (3:30 a.m. CST).  The flight went well -- except that Rainey was laughing at poor Ben whose pacemaker always sets off the security alarms so that he is rigorously searched, prodded, and poked.  I think I will suggest that he grow a beard and mustache and get a big Osama bin Laden tattoo...  (During the 70's and 80's, I wore a mustache and long beard -- and I got pulled aside and searched every time I flew [probably for drugs...])


    I am so glad that Rainey was able to go down as our representative.  She had never been to a Mexican funeral before, and it was appropriate that her first funeral mass be for her grandfather.  She also pointed out to us that she had never walked in a funeral cortege to the cemetery behind a Mercedes hearse before.  [If you remember back in the summer, we wrote about seeing a Jaguar hearse there in Tepic.]  She said it was a beautiful service, and Lorena did great.


    Afterwards, many of the family went to eat at Beto's (different Beto) restaurant out near Bugam Villas where they stuffed themselves on seafood.  Rainey said she knows there were at least 60 family members there, and there may have been more.  When we called, they were at home eating dinner now.  [Remember that Tepic is only a few miles from the Pacific Coast between Puerto Vallarta and Mazatlán.]  She said they were having seafood again, and she is stuffed with seafood.


    She has been spending all her free time with Mommy, and apparently Mommy is grilling her about everything from her classes to her boyfriend to her career plans to how and what we are doing.  Rainey said Lorena wants to talk so badly that her desire is palpable.  We had a wonderful (and LONG) conversation with them (including Gaby).  I am really glad that Rainey had a chance to go down to be with her.  I know that Lorena misses her father desperately, but she is in great spirits because she knows that his suffering is over, and she is comforted by the knowledge that we will be reunited one day.


    Rainey is supposed to send us reports on her activities and on Lorena, along with a bunch of pictures.  Thank you for your prayers. 

  • Alfonso Aguilar Zapata

    Michael here in Stephenville.  Yesterday was crazy, and I must get some sleep sometime, but I will let you know a little about what happened yesterday and where we are today.  About noon yesterday, Rainey called to report that Lorena's sister Angie Moreno had called from Tepic to say that Papá was not doing well at all.  They did not expect him to make it through the day. 


    About 3:00 p.m., during 7th period, I was summoned to the office for a phone call.  I suspected there was a link here, and, sure enough, it was Chris Aguilar (who has just recently arrived back here in Stephenville) calling to report the death of Lorena's father.  Lorena's brother Rafael, Chris's husband, had called from Mexico to say that their father, Alfonso Aguilar Zapata, had gone to sleep this afternoon only to be discovered a while later to have died in his sleep.  There are deaths to be envied, and his is one of them.  Everyone there, including Lorena, is fine but very sorrowful.  She announced that she and Ben had bought tickets and were heading for Fort Worth.


    Rainey arrived at school shortly thereafter, holding me for a moment and crying in front of my class (which subdued them markedly.)  They had requested for at least one of us to go down for the funeral (held this afternoon), so she got on the Internet and started searching for tickets.  Martha, Lorena's sister living in California, was going down, but we did not know if she was going to fly into Puerto Vallarta or Guadalajara.  We had already been told that no one was going to be able to go pick people up, so everyone was going to have to take a taxi to the bus station and take a bus to Tepic.


    Our big concern, of course, was with Lorena.  Papá was elderly, in very poor health complicated by diabetes and heart problems, and he has suffered severe depression since Lorena's mother died last Spring.  I really feel that the only thing keeping him here was the desire to see Lorena recuperate.  More and more, he wanted only to sleep because that was the only way he could "see his Dulce [Sweet]"  (i.e. dream of Lorena's mother.)  [His lungs had begun to fill with liquids earlier in the day, so I am certain that the ultimate cause of death was probably congestive heart failure.]  The question is, though, what to do with Lorena.  She has been receiving excellent care and has been making steady progress, but I owe tens of thousands of dollars for her care and get no help from any quarter.  We can bring her back to the States where Medicaid will help us, but I fear that that is a fate worse than death because she still cannot advocate for herself, and nursing homes are woefully understaffed.  Consequently, our plans are all up in the air, and we will call tonight to try to get something worked out.


    Stephanie came in after school, and I told her of her grandfather's death.  It took a while for her to believe me, and then she began crying very hard.  I held her and asked her if she was all right.  She quickly assured me that she was and that she was glad that her abuelito wouldn't have to suffer any more.  However, she said that she was crying because she would miss him, and she knew how badly this would hurt her mother and Lya.


    Rainey had called Kathleen Stripling and asked her to pick Lya up when she picked Molly up from school.  Later, Rainey called Kathleen up again and asked her to tell Lya about the death.  Lya was the one whom I had worried about most because she has always been her Abuelito's girl, and he doted upon her.  Kathleen was reluctant to tell Lya, but when she finally did, Lya only said "Good," which surprised and shocked Kathleen until Lya explained that now her grandfather would not have to suffer anymore, and "He will be with my abuelita so that he will be happy again."  Just as Kathleen thought that Lya was going to have no real reaction, Lya began to cry very hard, explaining that she was crying for Lorena and her brothers and sisters who had lost their father, and she was thinking of how sad they must be.  Have I mentioned lately how incredibly proud I am of my girls?


    It looked as though Rainey was going to have to fly down by herself, go to the bus station alone, and then travel alone to Tepic -- at about midnight.  Needless to say, I was just a little concerned about her doing that in one of the largest cities in the world (and second largest city in Mexico.)  [Our finances are shot anyway, so I had basically decided that none of us would be able to go.]  Finally, we were able to discover that Martha, Chris and Ben were all flying into Guadalajara -- and they would all be arriving there about 10:30 p.m., so if Rainey could get there then, she could travel with them to the bus station and thence on to Tepic.  At 5:30 p.m., I was finally able to secure a ticket on the last flight of the day out of DFW.  The only problem was that it departed at 8:00 p.m.  For an international flight, of course, we were supposed to check in two hours before departure -- and we live almost two hours from DFW (especially considering traffic that time of day.)


    I bought the ticket. Rainey (who had been trying to contact her professors to tell them what was transpiring) raced home and began packing her suitcase and gathering her passport and other papers.  I called Lya to tell her what we were going to do, and she requested to go, so Kathleen agreed to drop her off at the house.  Then I raced home, marshaled our forces, and by 6:00 p.m. we were heading toward DFW in Rainey's car.  Rainey was calling Stephi and Kathleen, trying to find the American Airlines number to tell them what our situation was.  Lya was trying to call Ben and Chris to see what their situation was and to tell them what our plans were.  And I was trying to watch (for what good it would have done) for highway troopers as I sped north.


    Then, a few miles out of Stephenville, I happened to glance down to discover that Rainey's gas tank was on empty and her low gasoline light was on.  "Oops," she said, "that came on this morning, and I was going to fill it this evening.  I forgot."  I sweated bullets until we reached Morgan Mill where we pulled into a quintessential Texas filling station, the only one in "town".  In fact, it is the only business in town.  The first pump I pulled up to did not even have a fill nozzle.  The second had no glass over the gauge display and was repaired with duct tape with a sign that warned that it would not shut off automatically.  Anyway, I filled the tank as Rainey and Lya went inside to get some stuff, fussing later about the stale gum they had bought but, as Rainey, said, "What should we expect from a bustling commercial center such as this."


    We raced on to DFW.  I tried to keep it under 90 mph and prayed that I wouldn't get a ticket.  We saw several law enforcement officers, but they had other folks stopped, and I must admit that I was thankful for the misfortune of those others because it meant that the cops were too busy to get me -- and our time was just a valuable to us as the money to pay a ticket would have been.


    Finally we reached the AA terminal at DFW where we raced inside -- to discover Chris and Ben waiting to get their boarding passes and to check their luggage.  They had been taken  to the airport by some folks from church, and if our communications had been better, we could have rode down with them.  As it was, it turned out that they were on the same flight as Lorraine -- which we rejoiced over.  We got them through security, and then Lya and I sat in the lobby and waited until their flight took off, just in case they had some sort of trouble.


    Lya and I were starving, so I let her choose where she wanted to eat. She decided on Red Lobster "if it isn't too expensive..."  I assured her that Red Lobster would be fine.  She is a wonderful trooper, and she has always been very frugal knowing the condition our finances are in, so she was looking for the cheapest thing on the menu when she mentioned that she had never had lobster or crab.  I know she had, but she probably wasn't old enough to remember it, so I ordered her a huge crab/lobster combo while I asked for a calamari/clam appetizer.  The day had been horrible, so we splurged, held hands at the table and talked, especially about Lorena and Papá, and had a wonderful meal.  Lya really got excited about cracking the crab claws, and she got very adept at digging the meat out -- and feeding it to me after she filled up.


    We left the restaurant about 10:30 p.m., and I think Lya was asleep before we pulled out of the parking lot.  We got home about midnight -- and I am desperately feeling it now.  We did not hear anything from Rainey or Lorena, so we must assume that all is well.  We will call tonight to see how they are doing and to see what plans are being made.


    Thank you all for your prayers and your support.  We will get through this.  I really hurt for Lorena again because she was unable to ever tell her father goodbye or how much she loves him.  I know that he knows that, and I know that she knows that he knows, but it still hurts.  And we all believe the big show is yet to come, but it still hurts now.  Lorena's miracle continues, though.  To God be the glory.

  • This is Stephanie.  My dad and Lya are currently in Fort Worth making sure Lorraine gets on her flight to Mexico ok.  He called to ask me to get online and blog what has been going on.


    Last night our abuelito, my mom's father, went to bed, and didn't wake up.  He passed in his sleep thankfully, so he didn't suffer that much.  I haven't been home, I found out after school and found sactuary at my boyfriends house afraid to go home from fear of seeing how Lya was reacting to this.  I called her earlier and like always she was full of smiles.  She told me that we can't be selfish.  Our abuelito has been suffering from depression after losing my abuelita, heart conditions and diabetes.  She said he had done his good doings and at least he left in peace.  That little girl amazes me.  She has to be the strongest 7th grader I know.  I wish I  could be that strong.  Anyways, Lorraine is on her way to Tepic as I type this.  She should be returning on Saturday. 


    My dad will probably update better than i have later, he knows more about our situation...thank you for reading.


    <3


    Stephanie


     


    "To live in the hearts we leave behind is not to die."--Thomas Campbell.


    "I shall not die of a cold. I shall die of having lived."
    -- Willa Cather


    "I am ready to meet my maker, but whether my maker is prepared for the great ordeal of meeting me is another matter."
    -- Winston Churchill


    "Death is the liberator of him whom freedom cannot release, the physician of him whom medicine cannot cure, and the comforter of him whom time cannot console."
    --Charles C. Colton


    "Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."
    --Norman Cousins


    "Our life is made by the death of others."
    -- Leonardo da Vinci


    "On a day of burial there is no perspective--for space itself is annihilated. Your dead friend is still a fragmentary being. The day you bury him is a day of chores and crowds, of hands false or true to be shaken, of the immediate cares of mourning. The dead friend will not really die until tomorrow, when silence is round you again. Then he will show himself complete, as he was--to tear himself away, as he was, from the substantial you. Only then will you cry out because of him who is leaving and whom you cannot detain."
    -- Antoine de Saint-Exupéry


    "He had decided to live forever or die in the attempt."
    -- J. Heller


    "Good men must die, but death cannot kill their names."
    -- Proverb


     


     

  • Michael y mis niñas aqui in Stephenville.  We just completed a wonderful phone call with Lorena and Roberto, her male nurse tonight.  She sounded great!!!  She only cried one time, and that was when we all told her how much we love her and pleaded with her to get well soon and to get back here with us.  Other than that crying episode, the rest of the conversation was punctuated by some wonderful laughter.


    Stephi is all excited about the prom coming up.  She had already gotten a dress, but Lorraine's boyfriend's (Jeremy's) mother, Audrey, gave Stephi a very expensive dress that Jeremy's sister had bought for her prom but had never worn.  In fact, the dress has never been worn.  As Stephi was commiserating to Lorena, "Mom, I have seen Jeremy's sister, and she is very well endowed, so I thought there would be no problem with the dress.  It fit great everywhere until I tried to zip the very top up.  I am so upset!"  I suggested to Lorena that I go get a bed sheet and bind Stephi down real tight and then stuff her in the dress.  Lorena laughed delightedly at that, and that was wonderful to hear.  Stephi does want to check with a seamstress to see if the dress might be altered so that she can wear it without having to alter herself...


    Lya had to tell Lorena all about me trying to kill myself up on a steep metal roof with my chainsaw this evening as I trimmed some limbs that were encroaching on my space.  I couldn't find my crepe soled shoes (that I actually wore in high school back in the 70's), and the shoes that I was wearing did not get very good traction on the sheet metal, so I would slip and slide down to the limbs I needed to cut as Lya would screech and holler at me just like Lorena used to do.


    I tied the chainsaw off on a limb each time so that if I did go off the roof, I wouldn't have to worry about the chainsaw chasing me down.  I had not used the saw for a couple of years, so it took awhile for it to really get to running well, which meant that I would get myself braced and balanced, start the saw, reach out with the saw in one hand and the limb in the other to try to make the cut -- only to have the saw die so that I got to try (very gingerly) to yank on the saw to get it to going once again.  (All the time, Lya was screeching and hollering...)


    Finally, I just took off my shoes and socks, which worked pretty well because when the pollen and dust on the sheet metal would coat the bottoms of my feet and they would get really slippery, I would do this contorted balance-on-one-foot-with-chainsaw-in-other-hand-as-other-foot-is-brought-up-and-wiped-on-other-pants-leg-while-praying-my-planted-foot-did-not-slip-and-dump-me-on-my-rear-and-off-the-roof.  It had to look very neo-Hillbilly -- and it would probably have gotten constant viewing had I been unfortunate enough for anyone to have gotten it on tape and posted it on the Web.  I survived, by the way, and all the heart-stopping action was worth it as Lorena laughed while Lya told her about it.  I would go up and JUMP off the roof if it would make Lorena laugh like that again!!!


    When we asked, by the way, Lorena and Roberto indicated that Papá is not doing well.  Lorena did not cry, so I am certain that she has come to terms with the knowledge that he is probably not going to be around that much longer.  I am so sorry for both of them because the love each other so dearly, but they cannot communicate and they cannot hold each other.  I hurt for them.


    However, Lorena's miracle continues.  To God be the glory!!!  Thank you all.  (I will try to let you know if there is the possibility of another performance of the Praying Stork Hillbilly Chainsaw Dance...)  [Lya said at one point, "Daddy, I thought you were supposed to be pretty smart..."  Ouch...  That one stung...]

  • "Las Mañanitas"

    I have mentioned the Mexican birthday song "Las Mañanitas" on here many times, and several folks have asked about it, so I decided to post some info on it.  American author James Michener, in his novel Centenniel, referred to "Las Mañanitas" as the most beautiful birthday song in the world.  Like most folk songs, it exists in numerous versions, but I will draw your attention to a couple of them. 


    The first is taken from http://www.lucerito.net/mananitas.htm.  [This sample starts, by the way, in the poetic translation, at "How beautiful is the morning..."]


    LAS MAÑANITAS


    Recorded by Stanley A. Lucero as a combination of Mañanitas Tapatias and Mañanitas Mexicanas.  Listen to Las Mañanitas from the CD Dos Voces.


    At birthday parties, anniversaries, and serenatas we hear one of the many versions of Las Mañanitas being sung by trios, mariachis, bands, and loved ones.  There are more verses to this song than any other song I know.  Even though I've sung this song at least a thousand times, the look in the eyes of the people to whom the song is dedicated makes it feel like a new song.


    LYRICS TO LAS MANANITAS: Estas son las mañanitas que cantaba el Rey David; hoy por ser dia de tu santo te las cantamos a ti; Despierta mi bien despierta mira que ya amanecio ;Ya los pajaritos cantan la luna ya se metio;


    The Mañanitas (poetic translation)


    These are the lovely mañanitas that were sung by Rey David.  Today we sing them to a loved one who happy will be.  Wake up this early morning and the sun you will see.  As the moon leaves us this morning all the birds they will sing. How beautiful is the morning that I come to share with you.  We all come in celebration of this special day just for you.  The day it is a dawning and the light of day has come.  Awaken early this morning to see all that we have done.


    The Little Mornings (Literal translation)


    These are the little mornings that sang the King David, today for being day of your saint we sing them to you.  Wake up my love wake up look that sunrise has come, already the litttle birds sing; the moon already has set.  How pretty is the morning that I come on to greet you.  We come all with gladness and pleasure to congratulate you.  Already comes the sunrise; already the light of day has touched us.  Get up of morning, look that sunrise has come.


     NOTES:  I learned various versions of Las Mañanitas in New Mexico (Taos, Las Vegas, Albuquerque, Encino, San Cristobal, Penasco, Holman, Encino, Chihuahita, etc) starting in 1961, S.Lucero.  I was told the song came from México.  In my recording of Las Mañanitas (1974), I combined verses from the Mañanitas Mexicanas and Mañanitas Tapatias


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    Then, at http://www.musicalspanish.com/flashdemo3.htm you can follow the lyrics and the music if you are not familiar with the song.


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    Overall, the best site I have found is at http://www.niehs.nih.gov/kidspan/lyrics/mananitas.htm


    Estas son las mañanitas que cantaba el rey David
    Hoy por ser día de tu santo te las cantamos aquí.
    Despierta mi bien despierta
    Mira que ya amaneció
    Ya los pajaritos cantan
    La luna ya se metió.

    ¡Qué linda está la mañana hoy que vengo a saludarte
    Venimos todos con gusto y placer a felicitarte!
    El día en que tú naciste, nacieron todas las flores
    En la pila del bautizmo cantaron los ruiseñores.
    Ya viene amaneciendo ya la luz que ya Dios dió.
    Levantarse de la mañana, mira que ya amaneció.

    De las estrellas del cielo tengo que bajarte dos,
    Una para saludarte, otra para decirte adiós.
    Volaron cuatro palomas por toditas las ciudades
    hoy por ser día de tu santo te deseamos felicidades.
    Con rácimos de flores hoy te vengo a saludar.
    Y hoy por ser día de tu santo te venimos a cantar.

  • Font size FYI

    Most of you probably know this, but those we Neanderthals who have only recently moved from the hunter/gatherer stage of life still have much to learn about this infernal machine.  My small mind has finally been able to comprehend the following information. 


    I tend to post in large print so that Lorena will be able to read it with minimal effort.  However, you can change the font size easily.  Simply click on the text whose size you would like to adjust, press and hold the Control key, and turn the roller in your mouse.

  • Afghan Court Drops Case Against Christian

    By DANIEL COONEY, Associated Press Writer





    KABUL, Afghanistan - An Afghan court on Sunday dismissed a case against a man who converted from Islam to Christianity because of a lack of evidence and he will be released soon, officials said.


    The announcement came as U.S.-backed President Hamid Karzai faced mounting foreign pressure to free Abdul Rahman, a move that risked angering Muslim clerics here who have called for him to be killed.

    An official closely involved with the case told The Associated Press that it had been returned to the prosecutors for more investigation, but that in the meantime, Rahman would be released.


    "The court dismissed today the case against Abdul Rahman for a lack of information and a lot of legal gaps in the case," the official said Sunday, speaking on condition of anonymity because he was not authorized to speak publicly on the matter.


    "The decision about his release will be taken possibly tomorrow," the official added. "They don't have to keep him in jail while the attorney general is looking into the case."


    Abdul Wakil Omeri, a spokesman for the Supreme Court, confirmed that the case had been dismissed because of "problems with the prosecutors' evidence."


    He said several of Rahman's family members have testified that the 41-year-old has mental problems. "It is the job of the attorney general's office to decide if he is mentally fit to stand trial," he told AP.


    A Western diplomat, also declining to be identified because of the sensitivity of the case, said questions were being raised as to whether Rahman would stay in  Afghanistan or go into exile in a foreign country.  Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice said she could not confirm that an Afghan court had dismissed the case and stressed the U.S. needs to respect the sovereignty of Afghanistan, which she called a "young democracy."


    "We have our history of conflicts that had to be worked out after a new constitution. And so the Afghans are working on it. But America has stood solidly for religious freedom as a bedrock, the bedrock, of democracy, and we'll see." Rice said Sunday on NBC's "Meet the Press."


    Asked if American Christian missionaries should be encouraged to go to Afghanistan, Rice said: "I think that Afghans are pleased to get the help that they can get" but added "we need to be respectful of Afghan sovereignty."


    Rahman has been prosecuted under Afghanistan's Islamic laws for converting 16 years ago while working as a medical aid worker for an international Christian group helping Afghan refugees in Pakistan. He was arrested last month and charged with apostasy.


    Muslim clerics had threatened to incite Afghans to kill Rahman if the government freed him. They said he clearly violated Islamic Shariah law by rejecting Islam.


    The case against Rahman put Karzai in an awkward position.


    While the U.S., Britain and other countries that prop-up his government have demanded the trial be dropped, Karzai has had to be careful not to offend Islamic sensibilities at home and alienate religious conservatives who wield considerable power.


    Rahman had been held at a detention facility in central Kabul since his arrest, but he was moved to the notorious Policharki Prison just outside Kabul on Friday after threats were made against him by other inmates, prison warden Gen. Shahmir Amirpur told AP.


    Policharki, a high-security prison housing some 2,000 inmates, including about 350 Taliban and al-Qaida militants who were blamed for inciting a riot there late last month that killed six people.


    "We are watching him constantly. This is a very sensitive case so he needs high security," he said in an interview in his office in a crumbling building inside the jail.


    Rahman is being held in a cell by himself next to the office of a senior prison guard, the warden said. He showed the AP the outside of Rahman's cell door, but refused to allow reporters to speak to him or see him.


    He said Rahman had been asking guards for a Bible but that they did not have any to give him.


    Rahman, meanwhile, said he was fully aware of his choice and was ready to die for it, according to an interview published Sunday in an Italian newspaper La Repubblica.


    "I am serene. I have full awareness of what I have chosen. If I must die, I will die," Abdul Rahman told the Rome daily, responding to questions sent to him via a human rights worker who visited him in prison.


    "Somebody, a long time ago, did it for all of us," he added in a clear reference to Jesus.


    Rahman also told the Italian newspaper that his family — including his ex-wife and teenage daughters — reported him to the authorities three weeks ago.


    He said he made his choice to become a Christian "in small steps," after he left Afghanistan 16 years ago. He moved to Pakistan, then Germany. He tried to get a visa in Belgium.


    "In Peshawar I worked for a humanitarian organization. They were Catholics," Rahman said. "I started talking to them about religion, I read the Bible, it opened my heart and my mind."

  • Lorena's sister Martha called today from California.  She had just gotten off the phone with her familiy, Lorena included, there in Tepic, and was making contact with us to let us know that Papá's situation once again is very grave and to let us know that they are concerned what to do about Lorena when he dies.  I really don't know what to do.  The care there has been phenomenal although I owe a huge bill (many tens of thousands of dollars now) for her care.  If I brought her back to the States, the good news is that we would at least get some help with our finances through Medicaid, but we could not care for her here at home, we could not afford personal, private care as she is receiving there in Mexico, and, since nursing homes tend to be understaffed and Lorena cannot ask for help when she needs it, I fear that she would go downhill rapidly as she did before, or we and our friends would destroy ourselves (as we tried to do before) caring for her there.  Just start calling me D. Lemma, I guess.  I know that God won't give us more than we can handle, but I sure wish he didn't have so much faith in me -- and my handle is getting very, very short...


    These girls are so phenomenal dealing with this, though.  I am amazed by their resiliency and their faith.  She is going to start talking any day.  She is going to get well.  She is going to come back this summer.  She is going to resume her life with us just as it was before.  She is going to be she same beautiful, wonderful, HEALTHY Lorena that she was.  They dream about her almost nightly in the future as she was in the past -- and they are incredibly excited when they narrate the dreams to me the next morning.  Lya, especially, keeps wanting to make plans for Mommy's return this summer because Lorena said that she will be back here, and if Mommy says something...  I have faith that she will return, and I pray desperately for that, but my faith pales in comparison with Lya's, and I am humbled by her innocence and unquestioning faith that God will provide and that Mommy will be restored.


    I, on the other hand, hang my head in shame and identify distressingly with Peter.  I trust you, Lord, and I have faith.  I KNOW that You have everything under control and that all of this is part of an incredibly wonderful plan.  With Your guidance, I have already walked on waters that I thought were impassable.  But, God, this storm is so vicious, and I am so tired.  These waves are threatening to engulf everything I hold dear, and all I have worked for, along with all me dreams and plans, are seemingly being washed away.  Suddenly, I feel myself sinking into the maelstrom, only capable of begging desperately, "Save me, Lord."  Just as Peter, I am chagrined to realize how little faith I have (as Lya pats me on the back and says, "It's okay, Daddy.  Everything will be all right.  God will take care of us.")  I now have no doubt that my genealogical antecedant is none other Thomas the Apostle.... 


    We will call Lorena tonight.  Hopefully, I will get some reassurance from her, and, even more importantly, it is imperative that I reassure her.  Her speech therapist, by the way, is telling the family that she expects Lorena to start talking again at any time.  [She had begun talking again in November 2004 after her tracheotomy was closed, but by the time we arrived for Christmas, she had regressed and was mute once more.  If she would start talking once again, all of you, wherever you are in the world, would hear my shouts of joy.]


    Anyway, her miracle continues.  To God be the glory.  May He bless her, our girls, and all of you.  And may he forgive me my weaknesses.  Love those families with all your might.

  • Michael y las tres niñas in Stephenville.  We are well -- and we actually received a little more rain last night.  Tonight we are under a freeze warning!!!  The girls are running circles -- and our poor neighbors are probably cursing our eclectic musical tastes.  Lya has been blaring Sarah Brightman, Michael Buble, and classic 50's through 80's rock.  Stephanie has her grunge, punk, and goth rock and rap going.  Rainey is all excited about their new Hank Williams greatest hits collection.  And I have been listening to Balinese Barang/Keris dance, polkas, mambas, cumbias, mariachi, honky tonk piano, and Irish folk.  Ah!!!!  We had a hoe-down this evening of American folk, country, and western.  The girls watched Walk the Line and are all intrigued with music of that era anew.  I think I won the show, though, with my tone perfect rendition of the Carter family's "I'm Dreamin' Tonight of My Blue Eyes" -- complete with all the nasal intonations...


    Lorena used to love our hoe-downs.  We have a ton of Karaoke music, and she always had to sing La Bamba and the other Mexican folk songs.  I sure wish she could join us here now.  [I always enjoyed teasing her about La Cucaracha's connection to roach clips...]  I would give anything if we could sing La Zandunga together again.  I have to run Molly home.  Take care.  We love you all.