October 2, 2006

• Sick at Heart

  Last night, I had another wonderful phone call to Mexico.  Both Lorena and Stephanie were available, and I got to talk to both of them -- even though they were supposed to be eating dinner before Lorena's speech therapy.  I say that I got to talk TO Lorena, but that was all.  She did not spell anything out last night for me.  They are both doing well, and I am so thankful for that.  Steph says that things are going better there for her, and she sounded much happier.

  Tepic is having incredible rainstorms.  They have had a very active hurricane season, and massive rains are the result of that.  Stephi loves the rains, but the high humidity the next morning (with temperatures sometimes in the 80's) just about does her in.

  I feel sick at heart today, and big macho me could very easily be a big cry baby today.  I left the house to come to work to the accompaniment of a CareFlite helicopter (playing a part in a drama that I do not yet know.)  That sound curdles my blood and depresses me severely.  I have hurt all weekend thinking of the victims of the school shootings last week, both those actually shot and their families, friends, and classmates and colleagues.

  Then, today, I saw the story of the Amish school shooting.  That almost pushed me completely over the edge.  And the person responsible for butchering little girls and maiming others for life was a father???  If a person is so tormented that he must take his own life, why must he destroy the innocent around him?  Evil lives and walks among us.

  The last report I saw reported that four people were killed.  That is an egregious lie.  Perhaps only four death certificates must be filed, but many people died today, some just as completely and surely -- and brutally -- as if they themselves had been executed.  My only consolation comes in my belief that one day God WILL damn evil and banish it forever. 

  Furthermore, this horror makes me ask once again how anyone who does not believe in an afterlife can even contemplate existence.  Yes, this world is beautiful and life is normally fantastic -- but one senseless act of brutality such as these can destroy a lifetime of awe-inspiring sunrises and sunsets and memories of good times.  Thank God there will be another chapter in which all endings will be happy...

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